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♥While i noe myself as a creation of God,I am also obligated to realize & remember dt everyone else & everythin else r also God's creation.♥
♦From diary to blogging..sumhow i love pouring out my feelins on a blank page,jotting down my emotions,reminicsin d episodes of my life.Even some memoirs do bring me tears,i do want to remember it cos to me such experiences & heartache do make someone wiser,stronger & braver to overcome obstacles in life..
Everyone has a past,given it's good or bad..& so do i.Wateva i'm sharin here is fer my collection..eu r free to read,it's nt a problem to me but please respect my lifestory cos i dun live to please anybody & whu r eu to judge me??Got it!
Muchas gracias!♦
♥Happyness~It's betta den being rich!
♥Love~Juz wanna be ♥ by dearest&treasured souls in my life,dts enough!
♥Career~Wif God's willing,i prayed dat i will make a name wif dis passion of mine in near future.
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Monday, March 23, 2009 @ 11:39 PM Death Inevitable..Masya'Allah! There's a saying in malay,"ajal maut ditangan tuhan"..regardless of age,health and situation,if u gotta go..u have to leave.Scary right if it comes unprepared,like ur breathing at this moment and suddenly u are gone at the next minute...without even getting to say the 2x syahada,oh gosh..Astarafirugallah'alazim. This time i'm blogging,not to scare the shit out of u people and selisih malaikat 44...i still wanna live ok!Insya'allah,becos i haven't even repent yet.Illiterate in religion is my biggest fear!Honestly speaking,my journey to becoming an "ikhlas muslimin" still has a long way to go if God's willing to give me the light to his path.As i'm no angel and i have lived my life in such a carefree sinful life since young,i admit that it's not easy for people in my situation to become a holy person overnight.But still,i have the "niat" to change..hopefully,God will generously spare me the time...Amin. Ok,let me get this straight..if not u will think that i'm getting more n more wierd,right??I'm blogging about death is becos,somebody whom i know has just leave this world yesterday..and for sure,not turning back anymore.Though we are not close pals since the past years becos of i even have got no idea why,but her death still saddens me somehow.Cos no matter what are we now,she did enter my life as a friend before.And what i pitied the most is her kids that she left behind..as a mother,i really doesn't want that to happen to my gal either.Another malay saying,"biar mati bapak,jangan mati mak"...oh dear,hope life won't be so cruel to me! I'm not adding salt to the injury but whenever somebody whom i knew passed away,i can't help but to wonder what is it like when death come knocking at your door.And sadly,most of them leave in just a blink of the eye.Suddened death.Though i do have the knowledge about what will happen after a person has been buried by words of mouth and religious books,i still wonder how is it like being down there dark and lonely..it will be great isn't it if u just die and the end,forever..zzZzzZzz!!!But that's so unlikely to happen seyy..still there's the judgement day of your deeds while u'r alive that will determine whether u'll be rewarded handsomely in heaven or punished severely in hell.Ya Rabbi!!!And worse still,not even your loved ones can accompany or help u there.And u can't even bring along the gucci,prada and Lv bag that u once brag before.Alone and nothing.Oh gosh,i guess i must stop this topic already..can feel the hair standing around my neck la!!Kinda eerie even though it's the fact of life.. Well before i end..i really pray that this fren of mine will have a blessed journey afterlife.Innalillahhirajiun.May Allah blessed her soul,forgive her sins and place her within the people who is pious.Amin. |