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♥While i noe myself as a creation of God,I am also obligated to realize & remember dt everyone else & everythin else r also God's creation.♥
♦From diary to blogging..sumhow i love pouring out my feelins on a blank page,jotting down my emotions,reminicsin d episodes of my life.Even some memoirs do bring me tears,i do want to remember it cos to me such experiences & heartache do make someone wiser,stronger & braver to overcome obstacles in life..
Everyone has a past,given it's good or bad..& so do i.Wateva i'm sharin here is fer my collection..eu r free to read,it's nt a problem to me but please respect my lifestory cos i dun live to please anybody & whu r eu to judge me??Got it!
Muchas gracias!♦
♥Happyness~It's betta den being rich!
♥Love~Juz wanna be ♥ by dearest&treasured souls in my life,dts enough!
♥Career~Wif God's willing,i prayed dat i will make a name wif dis passion of mine in near future.
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Wednesday, June 30, 2010 @ 1:37 AM       My Love for Football.. ;) Many have said that if u can't beat them..join them!Trueness to me..well again,it depends on the situation lah,stupid..not everything in life u can do that!!Lol! Hmm..u might end up as a hypocrite if u just follow suit tho u r actually disgusted with them or their way of doing things..reason is simple,becos u can't beat your opponent!!Crictical situation..i will always try my best not to be in such scenario.If i do stuck in it..sucks but i'll try & see first what i can do to better the problemo..if there's still no light at the end of the tunnel..2 words,Adios Amigos!!Afterall,a charming woman doesn't follow the crowd.She is herself.WOW...lol!! Well,this special case of mine is different..it's about Mars & Venus!The differences between couple co~habiting together and compromising with each other especially when dealing with interests that differs from one another..We are simple species..he loves football,whereby i love shopping!! Shopping is occasional but football is like every single weekend nights for almost 1year a season would last.And every now & then there will be cups competition going on,clubs or internationally.And the most popular of all times is the Fifa World Cup which happens every 4years!Wow..sweats me! I always found myself in a position whereby i can't switch the Tv channel to my favourite shows cos Hubby was like so engross with every matches he watched..damnit!!! So..it takes me awhile to finally sat down beside him & ask watch the match together with him.At first,i was still clueless & feel bored cos 90mins is quite long for a girl to commit her time but slowly after understanding the game better..i find it quite interesting.Before,i have the same thought as other ladies..22 dumb men running thru n flow for a ball but that was history...hahaha!!!I've to admit that somehow it's becos of the charming players that makes me fall in love with soccer..When i first saw Robin Van Persie..i was like wow!!!!He's gorgeous,dude!! But my liking fall for the captain of Arsenal..Cesc Fabregas!Super cute boy..from him,i just feel that i need to support Arsenal.Tho Man U is great but..nahh,ugly boys!!!I used to like only the players before knowing the game..used to like David Beckham & Steven Gerrad..but just like that,not more.This time..i find myself supporting Arsenal fanaticly tho they hardly win any trophies for the last 5yrs as what i know & always come in 3rd or 4th placing every season in the EPL..it's alright since they are all young players.From not knowing what's offside,corner kick & fouls..i averagely know already,a thing or two about football..Even got myself an Arsenal jersey no.4 & Espanyol jersey no.7.Both are my favourite players..the And now it's WC season..as a Cesc Fabregas's fan,i automatically felt the urge to support Spain cos he's a Spainish player.Morever after i spotted the handsome yet talented Valencia striker,David Villa!!!Mesmerized & makes me all out again to watch the tournament...The Spainiards maybe underacheiver but they have shone brightly ever since winning the Euro2008!!!To me they have a complete team ranging from the likes of Fernando Torres,David Villa,Xavi Hernandez,Iniesta,Puyol & Gerrard Pique..even their substitutes are all stars..wuhoo!!!I really hope that they will go far this time round..praying hard. Now since i know how interesting football is especially when seeing the good looking dudes are on the field,i feel easier to relate to him and finally i understand why he is so "kemarok" to it...he's kemarok with the sport itself & me,becos of the dudes followed by the game..so in Malay,lantaklah asalkan ku happy sudah rather than arguing becos of being ignored whenever there's a match going on...Larga vida de futbol!!! |
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Tuesday, June 29, 2010 @ 3:52 AM         Our "FEELING~FEELING" Makeover Photoshoots... Almost 6years together..finally we got to take a pictures in a studio for momento.Even Pwincez did took pictures with a theme..she berangan to be Ariel the Mermaid so we let her feel like that under the sea princess...it'l be nice to remincse when she grow up & we grew older.. We went to Dcharacter Styling Team for the makeover...rating i give is 6/10...not bad but also not that superb...mahal beb!!!But for memories sake..it's okay lah.It's not like u go every year what...sedapkan hati sendiri..haha!!! Well..at the end of the day,pictures taken with loved ones are precious to remember & meant alot whenever we take a look at it.. :) |
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@ 2:55 AM         Mi Yacth Birthday.... I know,i know that my birthday dah long basi cos i was just so lazy to blog for months..haha!! 25th January is the day i was born..& it that makes me 27 this year.Sshhh!! This year i just feel the urge to celebrate it in a grander way..a yacth party bebeh!!Huhu!! But the some people je yang very "kampung"..jahat ehy mulut aku but fact is fact,right?!? I create a theme for my party which is floral dressy for the babes & surfers or ala J.Mraz for the dudes..they did dress up to my theme but some just dress up not to my expectation..sigh. I ordered some buffet spread from Hans Fingertips @ Facebook..nice food with good price..delicious Chocolate cake from Helen & to celebrate my special day,i did pop up champagne..Moet & Chandon okay...haha!!Yaya papaya kan aku..but it's my day,my business lah!! The boat sails at 1pm till 7pm if i'm not wrong..cruising in our lil sunny island. It was memorable for me..a day that i will not forget.As i say,tho some of the peepz were sucks..it's still something that i would cherish till eternity cos some people that was invited are gems in my life.. To the people that matters..thanks for coming to celebrate my birthday with me..i treasure the moments spent with u people & to yang aku terpaksa jemput..anggaplah ni pengalaman manis buat korang cos "sengkek" cam korang tak mungkinlah dapat invitation cam ni lagik...i'm harsh,i know and i don't mean to brag but for some internal reasons,i just feel that i need to just say what i felt... Last but not least..Happy Birthday to me & thanks Dady for everything.Thanks for that pretty gold anklet for me..Hearts u... |
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@ 1:42 AM     Precious Moments with Ra2 Academy Tho i have successfully completed my course with Cosmoprof Academy & graduated last December with quite a good diploma..i still find that something is missing somewhere.I don't feel completely satisfied with what i've learned. And it is..malay bridal make up techniques.I have yet to acquire that skill if i wanna have assignments in dolling up Malay brides,in near future. The night bridal make up which i've learned in Cosmo is really not suitable for Malay brides..since they are wearing extravagant costumes & heavy accessories..the make up has to be thick enough to match their outfit.Tak lah macam wayang pekji but the eye make up really need to be define strongly. By taking up this course,doesn't mean that i wanna focus only on andaman but i just think that to venture this industry i've to master both worlds..Insya'Allah,dengan keizinan Dia..i'll be a pro in these.I'm not gonna restrict myself in just 1 line je..kalau boleh,apa yang dipelajari akan aku manfaatkan.I'm still in the process of learning..dengan berbekalkan ilmu didada & juga semangat yang berkobar..dapatlah aku mencapai cita2 dimasa hadapan kelak..with His willingness. Well,3 days with Ra2 was like 3years!!They are so friendly & fun.I don't feel like i was learning at all..my mean,there was not much stress nor pressure except when i was practicing what that has been taught.But still,whenever i am clueless on certain areas..all of them will come to the rescue & help me amend the mistakes i've made.There was no harsh words from all of them,malahan..we all got motivated instead whenever we felt demoralized.Becos of their optimism & encouragement,we did improved instantly..it was such a miracle to learn & acquire such a complicated make up methods in just 3days!Tho it was kinda expensive but it's a money worth experience..U'll have got to invest in certain things in life if u wanna get good outcome... Insya'Allah..aku akan bertapak berlahan-lahan dalam masa yang terdekat.Semoga sukses dapat aku miliki satu hari nanti..Ameen. ;) Terima kasih Ra2 Academy kerana tidak lokek berkongsi tip dan pengalaman ketika mengajar terutama sekali Kak Yatee yang sungguh best!!You guys rock & i love all of u..!!! P/S:A big thanks to both of my models..Rin & Kak Lisayani yang da banyak berkorban mase diaorang kerana ku..Love you ladies lots!! |
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Saturday, May 1, 2010 @ 11:27 PM    1st May..The Day When She Arrived... When it comes to the month of May,it's a double joy for me!This month is & forever will be so meaningful to me cos came first of May,6years ago..i gave birth to this sweet lil angel called Nur Aryanna.I did not expect to deliver on a significant day to a special sweetheart whom has taught me the meaning of motherhood.Early stage of being a mother,i screwed up big time..at that point of time,i still thought that i was the old Sasha with so much freedom like i used to have..i forgot all about my responsibilities & d role i have to play as a mum.Thank goodness dat Allah SWT opened my eyes wide & make me realised my mistakes soonest before it was too late to even regret.Syukur. Since that incident,i really try my best to be a good mother by showering her unconditional love & give her everything within my might. Tho i may not be the perfect mum in the world,i believe that i've given my very best for my little girl.And as a single mum,i'm proud to say that i've made it steadily & i will never beg my pathetic ex husband for any kinda help..worse still begging him for petty cash!!So not me..sorrry,Loser! I got to celebrate Pwincez birthday since she was 2 so every year i am sure to plan something eventful for my darlin.Last year was the most grand birthday bash of all..spent a bom for the party & i thought it was going to be a happy occasion..hmm,the party did turn out well at the beginning but was destroyed wif a blink of an eye by some heartless creatures that i wish i had never knew at all!!To them that has repay my kindness wif shit..i leave their fate in the hand of Allah SWT for the Almighty is fair & righteous to all His human souls.Subbahan'allah.And nobody escape from His punishment..that's what we believe in,right?It still haunt me,up till today but well..what goes up,must come down!!Haa.. So once bitten,twice shy..this year,Pwincez celebrated her birthday party with simplicity & yet a memorable one.A mini party at her school with all her beloved classmates on the eve of her birthday..fun!!And on her special day..the three of us went out to celebrate it among ourselves!!That's what matter the most..Afterall,she would love any kinda celebration as long as Nan & me r there to celebrate it wif her. Guess it's enough for now,but before i end this i would love to tell her that i love her so much & will always pray for the best to befall on her.Insya'allah. Lastly..Happy 6th Birthday,Nur Aryanna... :) P/S:Mummy & Daddy love u to pieces!! |
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Monday, December 14, 2009 @ 9:16 PM Remembering 2009... 2009 is coming to an end,real soon..alot of pleasant and bitter memories i've encountered throughout this year. What i need to cherish,i'll treasure in my mind and what is need to be forgotten,i'll definitely bury it faraway from my thought..something i must do in order to stay happy always! I kick start 09 with full of luck and hope and when i pass my driving test with flying colors..i was blessed. I celebrate my 26th birthday this year with simplicity and it was just a small celebration between me and my loved ones. I did celebrate another birthday party at work and as what i've planned..& it also marked the end of my job working in a nightspot. This year,i have absolutely no contact with my family no more..not even one except for Abah's side. I just wanna be alone without them... Well my little princess is already in K1..how time flies. In the middle of March,i went and registered myself to a course which has been all along my passion and a dream i wanna pursue for a brighter future..Professional Make Up Artistry is my calling..Insya'allah with determination,i'll succeed. Aryanna's 5th birthday bash was fantabulous!!Booked 2chalet units at Goldkist Resort..a big spread of buffet we catered for the guests & it was amazing!!With music and loudness..it was something to remember.But good moment doesn't last forever..some envy eyes came and ruined the happy times i was enjoying by spilling the bean about Anan's dark secrets which she kept.An old story that happened in 2007 but only came to light 2years later when i am fucking engage to him & happy!!!So by telling me,she wished that i fuck off from him??Fact is,i am fuming mad at him for all the fuck he had done before..yea still,whenever flashbacks strike..although he is now honouring his words that he'll change for us!BUT..to fall into her trap and be a laughing stock in the end?Nah,i won't.Never teach granny to suck egg okay... ;) Anyway,from the beginning..it's she and her fucking gay husband that has plot everything that they can,to ruin my happiness despite being grateful to me for feeding them food!Husband motive is so unclear..maybe he enjoys seeing his friends betraying their girlfriends like how his whore wife always betrayed him??LMFAO!!! For the wife..it's so obvious that she's fucking eyeing my man!!She can't get him to her MINAH-NESS so she tries her best to see me..a person who's the most nicest person to her,suffer!!!Simply heartless,simply evil.. Remember peeps,jealousy kills your soul!May Allah bless us from evil's doing..Ameen. June is the period i was trying to cope with the sad fact that he did cheat on me..my woman's instincts was indeed true.Well,i tried to move on,trusting him again as per normal..i swear,if the news got to me when the moment he was doing..chances are,me & him=HISTORY!But,sadly or happily..i have to accept that he did changed in front of my eyes and it's only fair if i give him one more chance..sigh. I love July cos it's the month i started my make up artistry course!!Beginning was tough cos make up is not as simple as i thought especially when you're in the professional league...but soon,it became more interesting and fun!!!Crazy coursemates & gila shifu..LOL!! August was hubby's birthday..well,i did blogged about the it! :) Soon..it was fasting month.Very simple celebration for the three of us..But i went all out shopping and preparing for raya like as if it was a big celebration!!Haha..crazy me!Well,you'll do anything to make life lively even without them!!Peace.. Amani came into our life...for the first time in 26years of living,i finally break my fear into pieces when i'm no more afraid of these creatures!!Wohoo!!I so in love with my babypet! Last week of October was a romance period for the both of us..we are already 5years together and it was something..special.Hmm..what's in store for 2010 yea?Wonder.. December..busy mode on!!Preparing for exam & portfolio to settle.Syukur,everything went on smoothly though my models sucks big time!!!Second half of the month was..exciting!Oops,anxious i mean cos i am waiting for the result!Thank God,i passed but i am till now still kinda dissapointed cos i am just behind 5% to attain distinction!!!Hais.. :( Soon,i watched days goes by and waiting to welcome 2010 with hope for better days ahead! So for now..Goodbye 2009..Hello 201o!! |
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Friday, October 30, 2009 @ 3:50 AM    ♥♥Our 5th Anniversary♥♥ We are older now but better by far Who knows how good can it be Our love still grows like a plant in the sun Or a wave rising up from the sea. We laughed before,but we laughed more now. Life is more fun so it seems. Days are sunnier,the moon shines brighter; Our life is the stuff of dreams. We shared in the past,but today we share more. There's a warmth that keeps growing inside. We loved when we met;it was powerful then, Yet now our love's strong as the tide. You're the precious,dearest thing to come into my life, Praise to the Almighty,the love he sprinkle from the sky. And i know one thing sure:You'll be dearer still, As time goes by...♥ P/s:Cherish the moment we celebrate our anniversary alright,my love.. i love every moment spent with you! |